Random Ramblings

I am so sorry that I haven't posted my 10 week update...and to be honest, I'm not going to this week. Nothing has really changed, and I will post [hopefully] on Saturday or Sunday after my doctor appointment this Friday. To be honest, I am so excited about the appointment, seeing as we didn't get to hear the heartbeat last appointment. I can't wait to hear that oh so beautiful sound!

But around here this week...things have been hectic!! I started feeling better last week, but then this week...things have reared their nasty head again. Migraines...check! And they are absolutely horrible. I'm hoping that they will start to subside as soon as I hit 2nd tri! And I hope they do. They're no fun! Morning sickness, on the other hand, hasn't been near as bad as it was. It has subsided a lot...but I still get nauseous some. Hopefully that is going away for good. I do know...a full night's sleep would be wonderful sometime though!

But like I was saying about this week....dang! I need a breather. It's exhausting being pregnant with other things going on. Last Saturday and Sunday, I had orientation for work and start this Friday. As nervous as I am...I'm also so excited about starting work again. I really haven't had a job since December [minus the 3 weeks in February]...so I am pretty happy about this. Monday night, we had some severe weather move through. And I mean severe when I say that...not just some "I'm scared and think this is gonna be bad" weather. We were out of power for almost 24 hours [can't complain, I know]. But the thing is, we almost think that a tornado skipped around us. Our chicken houses have tin thrown off the roof...stuff flew across the road in to our hay field...there are HUGE trees uprooted...and then the people down the road have an ass load of cleaning up to do. Thankfully, everyone is safe. But literally, the power went out and BAM the storm was right over us. We seriously had no warning at all..no thunder, lightning, or anything. So not too sure what it was.

But, I am going to end this for the night. Just needed to ramble on some. Hope y'all have a wonderful rest of the week!

Life, in general

I know, I haven't blogged in a while. I need to get back to the grind and start blogging again. After the last blog, we were out of school probably for another day or two. And since then, we've had another snow, but it stayed on the ground maybe 12-14 hours. And it was the kind of snow I like. Fluffy, and melts fast! It was beautiful none the least.

Life has been...interesting. I found another job, but the sad thing is I only have about five or so hours a week. I need a whole lot more than that. School is going well...tests and papers, etc. Gotta love college life!

When I have more time, I will definitely update more. Because there is a lot more going on then what I feel like posting right now. I don't think some things need to come out. But there's some personal things going on in life.

When it Rains, it Pours...Right?

I will post about my wonderful Christmas later this week when I get the chance. Right now though, I found out this morning that the restaurant I worked out was closed. We closed for good. I have been looking for a new job for a while, but now, I gotta get serious about looking. I'm sad. Mad. and so on. It sucks! Right after Christmas. I wish we had some kind of warning, but we had nothing. Just keep me in your prayers and that I will find something soon, please. It doesn't help that while getting a haircut today, I dropped my iPhone and cracked the screen. Just my luck...right?!

Random

I know I haven't posted in a while. It's been a crazy week around here. Again, my life revolves around school, work, and home basically.

Where to start....school. Hmm. It's still going well. I dropped my Spanish class because there was no way that I was going to pass it. On Tuesday, I talked to my advisor about classes next semester, and we talked about possibly transferring. Well, the school we were talking about was NGCSU up in Dahlonega...which is about an hour and a half away from here. I talked to everyone about it and then decided that it was in my best interest to stay down here instead. If I was to say what made my final decision, it would make someone upset since this person said that they shouldn't be the reason I decided to stay home instead. But then there are also some good nursing schools that are closer to home than an hour and a half. Umm...my grades are pretty well. I'm a little worried about Math, but she's a weird teacher. Like she teaches weird. Instead of teaching, she actually gives examples and expects us to learn it instead. But back to the advisor, (I know I'm jumping all over the place. Trust me) we talked about my classes next semester, and needless to say, it's going to be a very interesting and long semester.

Work...well, I actually had another interview last week at Reynold's Plantation. I decided not to take the job for a couple reasons, but mainly because I absolutely love my job I have right now. It's one of the best jobs I've ever had. Business has definitely been on a rise lately, and we are hoping that it stays that way. The finally decided to officially close on Sunday's because our Sunday business was horrible.

Dunno if I blogged about this before, but there is a new guy in my life. He is pretty wonderful. But we are definitely taking it slow and I am pretty happy with the way things are going!

And the past two weeks, Georgia has pulled out a W and beat Tennessee and Vanderbilt!! The past two weeks have been a lot of upsets in football and the SEC and all around. I have enjoyed pulling for my teams and watching football the past couple weeks.

But I'm pretty sure that's all the updates I have for now! I know I will probably think of more soon! And I will try to blog more often too.

And oh yes, my oldest nephew turned 7 this past Wednesday (10/13). Happy Birthday, Michael! I love you and can't believe 7 years have already passed by!!

Get a Little Stronger...Sara Evans

Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brush my teeth anyway,
Got dressed through the mess,
and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stonger

Ridin' in the car to work,
And I'm tryin to ignore the hurt,
So I turned on the radio,
Stupid song made me think of you,
I listen to it for a minute,
But then I changed it,
I'm gettin a little bit stronger,
Just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

It doesn't happen overnight,
but you turn around and months gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried,
Not givin' you an hour or a second or another minute longer,
I'm busy gettin' stronger

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Gettin' on without you baby
I'm better off without you baby
How does it feel without me baby
I'm gettin' stronger without you baby

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Just a little bit stronger

Little bit, little bit, a little bit stronger

Get a little bit stronger

Man, does this song hit home. I was on the way home tonight from Ken's and heard it on the radio. I made it through the first verse okay. Chorus...started crying a little. Second verse when she talks about how it's already been months and all...I balled like a baby. I swear, if the people at the stop light saw me, they probably thought I had lost my mind.

Anyways, after hearing this song and drying up the tears, I called my best friend and told her about it. She was the first person I wanted to talk to after hearing it. I told her about the song, and how well I related to it. (For a little side note, she was there by my side two nights before Bryan told me he wanted to separate. I had stayed at her house that night.) Then when I finished telling her how it hit home and how I balled like a baby, we talked about things. It has been FIVE months since that day Bryan told me that he wanted a divorce in a text message (what kind of douche bag sends that in a text message?!). But like I said, it's been 5 months...and it seems like yesterday. I have gotten use to looking at my hand and there not being a ring on my finger. I have gotten use to having the bed to myself. I have gotten use to not waking up in the  middle of the night and not having anyone beside me. I've gotten use to all this stuff. But it doesn't feel like it's been five months. It doesn't feel like it should be five months. Where in the world has the time gone?


At the same time, it feels like it has been five months. I have had the best support team I could ever ask for. My family and my friends have been so amazing through all of this and I know that I couldn't have made it without them. I also know that I wouldn't have made it through all this without God. As one of my favorite verses goes: "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." (Psalms 23:4). I know that God was there for me through my "shadow of death" (the darkest times) and I had nothing to fear for He ws with me (your rod and your staff). I know that my walk with Christ has gotten so much better since I went through my divorce. It's not close to where I want it, but it's definitely getting there.

But I am going to stop rambling on. Basically, if it wasn't for hearing this song, you wouldn't have a post to read tonight! I was going to do Wordless Wednesday, but this got my attention instead! Hope everyone is having a good week and I will try to update soon or do a 30 Day Letter Project. The next letter is taking a while to write, I'm not sure what to say, mainly because it's to the person who hurt you the most...and of course, that's Bryan.

Playing a Little Catch Up

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Things have been crazy chaotic around my neck of the woods! School...work...life in general. I have to say, life is amazing right now. The guy that I have had feelings for since May (when I was told that my ex wanted to get a divorce) and I have finally decided that we think there might be potential between us and have decided to see where it would go. Needless to say, I am beyond excited! Yes, we are taking it extremely slow because I am not ready to get hurt or anything. He's a sweetheart, but he is older than I am. And when I say older, I mean by more than 2 or 3 years. But to me, age is nothing but a number.

School is insane. Not gonna lie. I feel like that's all I do now. I had to actually drop my Spanish class because I was doing horrible in it. So now that that's out of the way, I won't have to worry about failing a class. Pretty sure that I tried to take too many classes my first semester back after two and a half years, basically. My Algebra teacher is insane. She doesn't actually teach the class, but instead, shows us how to do things. Yes, I am a visual learner, but I gotta know how in the hell you get to that answer in the first place.

Work is going well. Well, kind of. I am actually considering looking for another job because our business has slowed down a lot and things just aren't looking good. But lately, I have been working between 4 and 5 days a week which isn't bad at all. But when you're getting only waitress pay (2.35/hour) plus tips (and business is slow), it's not too good. But I have to say, I love my job. I love the people that work there and I haven't gone to work dreading the day...besides the one day I had a hungover from hell. We don't talk about that :)

Football...UGH. Georgia is just having an off season. But I am so tired of seeing every one bashing them. Hello?! We have a freaking young team. AJ Green was suspened due to his stupidity. It hurt us. I didn't get to watch the game last night, but I heard they played a wonderful game until AJ Green went out due to dehydration. But I have always been and always will be a Dawg fan. GO DAWGS!!!

The only other thing that has gone on is my little sister turned 5 a week ago, and today,we celebrated her birthday. She truly was a princess today! She enjoyed it and had a blast. Pretty sure her favorite gift was either the bicycle she got or her doll. And she's walked around ever since opening her presents with her bike helmet and knee pads on. Too cute for words!

But I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. I know it has been a great weekend for me!

I will post pictures later when I get the chance! Thanks for bearing with me through this random, off the wall post!

I Keep On Lovin' You

I Keep On Lovin' You--Reba McEntire

Love takes the patience of Job
That's what my Mama always said
Faith is the belief in something more than what you know
That's what the Good Book says
You gotta play the cards you got
Who knows what fate is holding
At times you gotta go without knowing where you're going

That's why I keep on lovin' you
I keep on lovin' you
Through the baby don't leave mes
And never will agains
And I promise tos
I keep on lovin' you

Lord knows we've had our share of fights
Our sleepless nights, our ups and downs
We've had plenty and then some of baby I'm gones and turnarounds
Sometimes I swear it might be easier to throw in the towel
Someday we're gonna look back
Say look at us now

That's why I keep on lovin' you
I keep on lovin' you
Through the baby don't leave mes
And never will agains
And I promise tos
I keep on lovin' you

Keep on lovin' you
Through the I take it backs...I didn't mean it like thats
I'd never hurt yous...Oh, I keep on lovin' you

I keep on lovin' you...I keep on lovin' you
Through the I take it backs...I didn't mean it like that
I'd never hurt yous...Oh, I keep on lovin' you
I keep on lovin' you...I keep on lovin' you.

This is the song that is seriously on repeat in my car. Since having a wonderful marvelous friend burn me the cd on Sunday, I have probably listened to that song about 50 100 times already. I am in love with this song. And the thing is, it's the truth. Especially the second verse. No matter how many fights, how many times you want to leave, no matter how many times you just want to throw the towel in, I keep on loving you. I have plenty of songs that I love and can play on repeat to hear it a couple times...but I have never played a song like this one.

Life...

As I sit here, waiting on class to start, I think I'm going to update a little on life. I just don't want to do the 30 Day Letters and not anything else. I want to keep people (if anyone actually reads this) updated on everything else. This week is hard stressful. Thanks to three tests, and work all weekend. I'm not complaining about work, I'm just worried that it's going to mess up my studies. I can do it though, there are plenty of people that work and go to school at the same time.

Talking about work, I said I would tell y'all more about it later, and never did. So, I work at a little Italian resturant (yum!) here in my hometown, and wait tables. I definitely enjoy it! But I am missing out on seeing friends and all.

Talking about seeing people though...the weekend of October 14-17 is going to kick ass! I am beyond excited about it! That Thursday, I am headed to Millidgeville to see my little sister and go to the Brantley Gilbert concert. CAN.NOT.WAIT! That Friday, I will come back home to Athens, and head to the Corey Smith concert. Again, can't wait! That Saturday, is the Georgia vs. Vanderbilt game at home and we are tailgating, going to the Dawg walk, and then going somewhere to watch the game because 1. we weren't able to get tickets and 2. we are BROKE COLLEGE STUDENTS.

But that's life right now. Hope everyone is having a great week!

Little Update....Looking back on 9/11

I know it has been a while since I actually posted. And I will explain why.

School: has completely taken over my life. I feel like that's all I do right now. (That or work). I have three tests that I am studying cramming for by Tuesday. Why do college professors feel like they need to cram all of our tests on the same day? Probably so they can make our lives a living hell.

Work: has also taken over my life. I'm telling you, if I'm not at school, I am usually at work. I'm not complaining because I need the money. But then there's part of me that really misses my Monday-Friday job I had during the summer.

Friends: what are those?! Just kidding. I have seen a few friends this week. I studying with one and saw two while having dinner. I wish I had more time to spend with them though. I definitely enjoy spending time with friends when you can talk crap about some things, talk about football, and so on.

This weekend has really been an uneventful weekend. Which I am not complaining about at all. I worked a double on Friday, and made a good amount of money...I wait tables, for those of you who don't know that. After I got off work, I went and had Choo Choo's with an awesome friend. We probably sat there for a couple of hours just laughing about random stuff. Saturday, I slept in and then watched Georgia get slaughtered by South Carolina. I'm pretty sure I can't tell you how much I dislike hate Steve Spurrier and those freaking Gamecocks. UGH! I had to work that night, and then again, still made some money, but not near as good as Friday. After getting home, I had to make sure I caught up on all my football games from that day. Today (Sunday), I worked yet again. Made a good amount for a Sunday. But that has been my weekend.

On a sadder note, Saturday marked the 9 year anniversary of 9/11/2001. It's crazy to believe that it has already been 9 years. These years have flown by. I remember sitting in my 7th grade Social Studies classroom with Mrs. Shanks. I was 12 years old. We had just got done switching classes, and before I went in someone told me that they think that a plane crashed in to a building in NYC. Mrs. Shanks didn't say anything about it, so I just shrugged it off. Literally 5 minutes later, our principal at the time came on the intercom in a very serious tone, and told us that America was indeed under attack. So we turned on the television, and in all our classes that day, all we did was watch tv. Talk about freaking out. What was a 12 year old suppose to do when they hear something like this? I was a car rider at the time, and when my Dad picked me up, I remember asking what all was going on and if we were going to be okay. I later learned that I have a distant cousin that was in the basement of the Pentagon when it was attacked. He got out safely. But I feel all the innocent lives that were killed that day. I still get chills thinking about that horrific day. I am so glad that our country pulled together as one nation UNDER GOD after that day, but it's also sad that it took a tragedy like this one to come together. I am so thankful for the brave firefighters and police officers that put their lives on the line that day. And I am thankful now for the men and women who put their lives on the line every day while fighting for our freedom overseas. As a military sister, I send my prayers over there every night and they are always in my mind.

Very Exciting Weekend...

I know, I haven't posted in a few days. It has been a very busy couple of days!

Friday: I worked a double at work. Yes, second day working and they gave me a double. I didn't mind though:) more money=good news! Lunch was kinda busy...and I made a whopping $6 in tips. Again, not complaining...better than nothing at all. Then I worked dinner that night and we were busy slammed. The entire dining room was full. We ran out of silverware and plates. It was insane. I thought I was going insane since it was my first night on the floor. But I made $29 in tips, which made me happy:) can't wait to get more hours.

Saturday...I got a new car! Woot! I traded in my beloved GMC Envoy for a cute 2005 Scion xA. I needed something that was way more fuel efficient that what I was driving. I cried when they drove my car away, because I really loved it!! But I know I am going to love saving money on gas and all. But I'm going to go ahead abd post a picture :) it looks kind of purple (maroon), but the color on the sticker is Black Cheery Pearle.

When Life Gives You Lemons...

What do you do? You make lemonade of course. Or for us Southerners...you cut the lemons up and drop them in an ice cold glass of Sweet Tea. MMM.

Anyways, I said I would elaborate more on why this year was one that I would love to forget soon. So while I have the time, I will do that.

So...I rang in 2010 married. I was the happiest I have ever been...or so I thought. Well, my marriage came to an abrupt end in May of this year...after being married 6 months and 1 week. We won't go in to details on why it ended. If you know me, you already know why it ended. Basically, he and I had many problems.

Anyways, on Friday, May 7 (yes, I remember all the dates)...I was told that my ex wanted to take a break (6 months and 5 days after the big "I DO"). So, I gave him a break, and he said he would let me know within two weeks what he wants to do. On Sunday, May 9 (two days later...also Mother's Day)...I get a text message (I was so pissed!) saying that he wants a divorce and it's what he believes is best.

So, I give him the divorce. We went on Wednesday, May 12 to file the papers. Basically, I was told I had to move on with my life. The hardest thing to this day I have ever had to do. So I did the thing I believe anyone would do. I cried. I got mad. I (for a while) faked being happy. I turned to God when I needed Him the most.

I waited 30 days and called the courthouse to set up a hearing to finalize our divorce. 30 days came and went...I called, they gave me a final hearing date...June 22, 2010.

I had just gotten the best Summer job I had ever had a week before my hearing, so requesting off scared me. But I requested it off, saying I had to be in court that day. June 22 came...and I went to the courthouse. I was so nervous, but excited at the same time. They granted the divorce. I walked out of the courthouse, went to the Social Security office to change my name, and then went to the DMV. It hit me that evening that I was single again.

Looking back on the 6 months I was married, 6 months engaged prior to that, and the time we dated before...I was happy faking my happiness. Today, I know that I am the happiest I have ever been. Yes, I still struggle some days. But I am so much stronger now than I have ever been. I can't thank my family and friends enough for being there for me when I needed them the most. They are the best! And I know I wouldn't have gotten through all this without God by my side the whole time.

Wow...sorry this is so long! But it feels good to finally write it down so I can look back and see how far I've came later on down the road.

Oh yes, I finally got a job! But I'll save that for another post since this one is so long.