Get a Little Stronger...Sara Evans

Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brush my teeth anyway,
Got dressed through the mess,
and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stonger

Ridin' in the car to work,
And I'm tryin to ignore the hurt,
So I turned on the radio,
Stupid song made me think of you,
I listen to it for a minute,
But then I changed it,
I'm gettin a little bit stronger,
Just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

It doesn't happen overnight,
but you turn around and months gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried,
Not givin' you an hour or a second or another minute longer,
I'm busy gettin' stronger

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Gettin' on without you baby
I'm better off without you baby
How does it feel without me baby
I'm gettin' stronger without you baby

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Just a little bit stronger

Little bit, little bit, a little bit stronger

Get a little bit stronger

Man, does this song hit home. I was on the way home tonight from Ken's and heard it on the radio. I made it through the first verse okay. Chorus...started crying a little. Second verse when she talks about how it's already been months and all...I balled like a baby. I swear, if the people at the stop light saw me, they probably thought I had lost my mind.

Anyways, after hearing this song and drying up the tears, I called my best friend and told her about it. She was the first person I wanted to talk to after hearing it. I told her about the song, and how well I related to it. (For a little side note, she was there by my side two nights before Bryan told me he wanted to separate. I had stayed at her house that night.) Then when I finished telling her how it hit home and how I balled like a baby, we talked about things. It has been FIVE months since that day Bryan told me that he wanted a divorce in a text message (what kind of douche bag sends that in a text message?!). But like I said, it's been 5 months...and it seems like yesterday. I have gotten use to looking at my hand and there not being a ring on my finger. I have gotten use to having the bed to myself. I have gotten use to not waking up in the  middle of the night and not having anyone beside me. I've gotten use to all this stuff. But it doesn't feel like it's been five months. It doesn't feel like it should be five months. Where in the world has the time gone?


At the same time, it feels like it has been five months. I have had the best support team I could ever ask for. My family and my friends have been so amazing through all of this and I know that I couldn't have made it without them. I also know that I wouldn't have made it through all this without God. As one of my favorite verses goes: "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." (Psalms 23:4). I know that God was there for me through my "shadow of death" (the darkest times) and I had nothing to fear for He ws with me (your rod and your staff). I know that my walk with Christ has gotten so much better since I went through my divorce. It's not close to where I want it, but it's definitely getting there.

But I am going to stop rambling on. Basically, if it wasn't for hearing this song, you wouldn't have a post to read tonight! I was going to do Wordless Wednesday, but this got my attention instead! Hope everyone is having a good week and I will try to update soon or do a 30 Day Letter Project. The next letter is taking a while to write, I'm not sure what to say, mainly because it's to the person who hurt you the most...and of course, that's Bryan.

"My Kind of Crazy"

I have to say, I am in love with this song. Brantley Gilbert has always written good songs, but this one states the truth. I know one day, I want to be someone's kind of crazy. Listen to the words...watch the video! It's cute :)

I Keep On Lovin' You

I Keep On Lovin' You--Reba McEntire

Love takes the patience of Job
That's what my Mama always said
Faith is the belief in something more than what you know
That's what the Good Book says
You gotta play the cards you got
Who knows what fate is holding
At times you gotta go without knowing where you're going

That's why I keep on lovin' you
I keep on lovin' you
Through the baby don't leave mes
And never will agains
And I promise tos
I keep on lovin' you

Lord knows we've had our share of fights
Our sleepless nights, our ups and downs
We've had plenty and then some of baby I'm gones and turnarounds
Sometimes I swear it might be easier to throw in the towel
Someday we're gonna look back
Say look at us now

That's why I keep on lovin' you
I keep on lovin' you
Through the baby don't leave mes
And never will agains
And I promise tos
I keep on lovin' you

Keep on lovin' you
Through the I take it backs...I didn't mean it like thats
I'd never hurt yous...Oh, I keep on lovin' you

I keep on lovin' you...I keep on lovin' you
Through the I take it backs...I didn't mean it like that
I'd never hurt yous...Oh, I keep on lovin' you
I keep on lovin' you...I keep on lovin' you.

This is the song that is seriously on repeat in my car. Since having a wonderful marvelous friend burn me the cd on Sunday, I have probably listened to that song about 50 100 times already. I am in love with this song. And the thing is, it's the truth. Especially the second verse. No matter how many fights, how many times you want to leave, no matter how many times you just want to throw the towel in, I keep on loving you. I have plenty of songs that I love and can play on repeat to hear it a couple times...but I have never played a song like this one.